So, I've been on this kick lately...a mood per say. It's an anti-Stacy mood and it's really kinda bumming me out. It's been a week since my favorable pants, and everything has just been blah since.

Last week was hell...a hell that I never want to revisit. As hellish as it was with 4 tests and a research paper due, so many nice things happened that almost make me want to go back. Different people were nice to me, others I never really had to see(family). I always had something to do, there was not a dull moment, yet when they came they were welcome. I thoroughly enjoyed the show and would do it again in a heartbeat, and I want to do it again soo bad. Even though my lips are dead and I have a concert on Wednesday.

So there are a few things that I learned about myself over the past week or so, that have kind of been getting me down...

• I can't dance or sing
• I'm not the type of girl you like back
• people can pretend to be my friend, then really not care at all about me
• I am not secretly amazing at rock climbing...i have a theory that one day I will do something and I will be absolutely amazing at it an people will be like wow...she's pretty darn good at that. It isn't dancing, singing, ice skating, rock climbing...or a number of other things I have tried.
• I'm not in AP English
• I suck at the things I'm "good at"
• I only have 8 PIG hours and the Volleyball tournament is this Saturday

You know, and a lot of these things are the hypothetical what if situations. What if I could dance and was up on that stage this weekend soaking in the bright lights and sweating my butt off but having so much fun with it at the same time. What if I had something to show for my accomplishments than a stupid report card and a passing AP Biology test? All these things I wonder.

I guess I just don't know how to say things anymore.