Oh it has been a while...and my last entry was quite depressing in a sense. But things have changed since then...I am still alive.

So today was all pretty much about one thing...friends. A lot of things happened with them today, and I really do realize that I am surrounded by a fantastic group of people who really love me. Whether it be the ability to forgive me after calling them unnecessary obscenities. The joy of laughing obnoxiously half to piss of Kristina, half because we just can't stop during choir. Being able to seriously joke about dissecting cats and doing all sorts of different things in the process while talking about kidneys, urine and the adrenal glands. Pushing me to go further up a wall. Setting aside time to visit a swingset at a park and watch James Franco movies. Taking me out for an after-school milkshake. Impersonating stupid American accents..."That is so fetch!". Coordinating a hug from across the hall while everybody is trying to leave..."Go now! No wait...don't go! NOW STACY! No stop!..." And finally, having true and full belief in me all the way.

I realize I may have seemed like a bitch this past week...because I was a bitch. I was tired...I couldn't wear my contacts...my brain was wreaking obsessive-compulsive havoc on me, which automatically makes me edgy.

So anywho...thanks y'all. I love you all...je vous aime beaucoup...mam te moc rada...whatever language you speak, you get it.

Only six more days until Spring break...we can make it (???)

So, I've been on this kick lately...a mood per say. It's an anti-Stacy mood and it's really kinda bumming me out. It's been a week since my favorable pants, and everything has just been blah since.

Last week was hell...a hell that I never want to revisit. As hellish as it was with 4 tests and a research paper due, so many nice things happened that almost make me want to go back. Different people were nice to me, others I never really had to see(family). I always had something to do, there was not a dull moment, yet when they came they were welcome. I thoroughly enjoyed the show and would do it again in a heartbeat, and I want to do it again soo bad. Even though my lips are dead and I have a concert on Wednesday.

So there are a few things that I learned about myself over the past week or so, that have kind of been getting me down...

• I can't dance or sing
• I'm not the type of girl you like back
• people can pretend to be my friend, then really not care at all about me
• I am not secretly amazing at rock climbing...i have a theory that one day I will do something and I will be absolutely amazing at it an people will be like wow...she's pretty darn good at that. It isn't dancing, singing, ice skating, rock climbing...or a number of other things I have tried.
• I'm not in AP English
• I suck at the things I'm "good at"
• I only have 8 PIG hours and the Volleyball tournament is this Saturday

You know, and a lot of these things are the hypothetical what if situations. What if I could dance and was up on that stage this weekend soaking in the bright lights and sweating my butt off but having so much fun with it at the same time. What if I had something to show for my accomplishments than a stupid report card and a passing AP Biology test? All these things I wonder.

I guess I just don't know how to say things anymore.

Please tell me what causes that...

So today sucked, but Im' ok with that, because I officially HATE math. Natural response.

I have realized something recently that I reallyreally am rather ashamed of and I am not happy about it. And I just don't know who to tell, but I can't keep it inside and therefore I put it here...in very vague terms. I don't know why I feel this way. But it seems to always happen around this time of year.

That was kind of stupid of me right there. Don't get yourself caught up in it please, because I won't tell you.

Now I must go write an entire research paper. Just kill me now. I hate school.

Glorious Day

Today, something happened. I'm not talking about the senior prank that some people pulled today, or the fact that I was completely cracked out or something. I'm talking about the atmosphere. It's almost as if the world just decided to be warm and welcoming again. I walked out of school without a jacket...just my shirt. And it felt WONDERFUL.

I wanna go do something, like take a page form Rachel's book and go rollerblading. That sunds like a lot of fun and a good workout. Maybe I'll take my sneakers to pit tonight and run around a bit in between. But unfortunately I am stuck here doing calculus that I am completely clueless on.

I just can't get over the feeling, as I stopped at my locker after and thinking...no, I don't need to put this thermal-keep-me-alive-in-a-snowstorm jacket...it's beautiful out. I have no doubt about that. And it was gorgeous. I opened my car and felt a rush of warm air from it baking in the sun all day. Sat down in my now stretchy and hot leather seat. Even my lumbar cushion had expanded in the warmth...as air molecules usually do, so I had to deflate it a little bit. It was all sooo amazing I don't know what to say. I even drove home with the sunroof cracked!

My dog WANTS to go outside. I got home, and shoveled snow onto the driveway to increase the surface area. It's amazing how much the weather can change in a short while. One week we are braving blustering winds with a state of alert storm on the way, the next, I walk out the door at 6.20 and can smile at the lack of snow in my front yard.

It even smells of springtime freshness :)

I love spring...ciao bellas

Everything is Better in Favorable Pants

Today sucked, I'm not gonna lie, and this week will suck. But I'm not gonna sit here and gripe about it right now. You know why? Because I am wearing favorable pants.

I was up until about 3 last night studying the same stuff I had been studying all weekend, after the most grueling tech rehearsal ever...that calculates out to 3 hours of sleep about. I got up and had a 3 minute freezing cold shower (you try taking a 3 minute shower with OCD), screwed up my makeup, had to make decaf tea as we were out of regular, was forced to make different waffles because we were out of the kind I like, and 2 minutes before leaving, I discovered a frosty surprise on my car, making me late.

If that wasn't enough reason for me to want to be a bitch today...

I went to school, Cait McNaney decided to start the countdown to first block at 4 minutes instead of 5, screwing me up, I had to write 2 worksheets, an essay thing, and finish my bio questions but I still found time to make fun of the crappy movie. We played 1812 through today in band, we stood mixed in choir when all I really wanted to do was study for the bio test that I was pretty confident on already. Turns out that confidence doesn't mean anything because I am not really sure where that test and I stand...lifelong enemies or friends to the end. There were 2 people in lunch today, me and Danielle Cumbo. Then I go to math...the single largest waste of time and space in my life...where Mr. Strohm hands me all the work he neglected to give to me after math league Thursday...a packet about 1 cm thick and 7 practice AP Questions...he wanted 3 by the end of class.

I have a French test tomorrow, an English test Wednesday, and a math test Wednesday, and a research paper due Friday. Play practice EVERY NIGHT this week for at least 4 hours each time.

You know what though, even if you didn't read all of that boring garble, I could care less. Nothing could touch me today. I animated a voice for my car as I pulled into my parking spot. I was bursting at the seams with confidence as I went into my bio test, I accepted each hurdle with a level I had never before seen in myself. Why though?

FAVORABLE PANTS

It took me a while to think up the right adjective to use with these pants...favorable was perfect. They are khaki cargos, baggy and comfy, but as baggy as they are, they are a size 5 which is amazing as they are still too big, they make my ass look amazing, and they fit so nicely. Not to mention they are the light and breezy fabric that you can only wear in the spring time, and today was close enough.

The funny thing to take note of is how much my mood was altered by the aforementioned pants. You can even see it in my typing...I am being wordy as opposed to my usual English vocabulary defiant writing.

The point is, you should try wearing favorable pants tomorrow...your most favorablest. That way everyone will be happy. Of course they're not magic, you gotta go forth with the right mindset. I like days like today when they go right. That's all folks.

More Fun

So I feel kinda bad about subjecting you all to that last post, so here are some pictures that cheer me up, but probably not so much you.


So this is Bentley Hall, the trademark of Allegheny College. It is said that the 25 president of the United States, who served from 1897-1901, President McKinley, brought a cow up to the top of the tower while attending the school. Ohh McKinley.





If you look at this picture and let your eyes wander to the right, you are looking at my residence hall for ext year, assuming I get into the hall I want. It's pretty I know.


Ravine Bridge...the ravine runs right through Allegheny in front of Bentley Hall...it's amazing and I love it so much











Now I'm bored...Check Y'all later

So, This is gonna be boring for you

Somehow in the course of the week, I have accumulated a mountain of homework so high that I fear it just might take over the world...or something like that. I don't know how it happened, or when. I'm only taking five real classes, ugh. So the following is Stacy's weekend, which she has taken today to plan out in her agenda...

• English research project...due March 12. Apparently though, according to Mrs. Hill, I have extreme passion for my subject...and I do, it doesn't make it any less annoying to write.
• Biology Test Corrections...due March 5...thank you Mel and Rachel for taking me out the night before, but I don't appreciate a 69 on my photosynthesis test...even if "it is passing"
• Biology question sets...I don't know when these are due, but Doc gave us the last set of four today...that means test coming up...and I wanna avoid the same crunch I got myself into last time, especially with the show coming up.
• Calculus...one assignment, two assignment, red assignment, test next Monday
• French class is a waste of my life and I wanna learn new stuff at some point this year, and I am sick of writing these stupid scrapbooks, annoying beyond belief...FCUK you FORSYTH
• PIG...I am done with this class. I don't like it at all. I don't really like Ms. Peterson and I have my reasons. There is no reason I should have a 91 in there. That class and I are not getting along right now, but I have to write journals and crap for it now. And I don't really like the Snow Volleyball Tournament, but it's a project and will be over in a few weeks.
• More English...reading 2 chapters in Frankenstein, who cares?
• More Biology...apparently I have to read an additional chapter...joy
• I have about 5 various birthday gifts to catch up on...Dating from January 18 to March 13...I do love giving, but finding the time for it sucks.

And on top of it all, I am spending all day tomorrow in Buffalo. Sure it means mall and Duff's, but I have a crap load of homework.

Umm yeah...that's all...other than pit orchestra might kill me

TGIF