A Year in the Passing

Tonight, is the Churchville-Chili Senior High School Senior Ball. WHAT?! But I just did that. It wasn't even a year ago...but the truth is, it was, and now my brother is going. Where did all this time go? The summer that lasted forever, the classes and days that felt like they would never end, the cold lasting winter and the days awaiting spring. So much has happened in the past year that I don't even know what to say.

One year ago I:

• was living out the last days of my high school life, thinking it mattered.
• was figuring out the friends who would stick with me, and those that would be better of I just let them slide.
• was experiencing a new culture thanks to three great girls who definitely helped pull me through my senior year.
• considered myself done with high school, but I was wrong.
• was dissecting a cat, a great experience.
• was stable.
• had a definite direction of where I was going and what I was doing with my life.

Over the past year I:

• have learned the real truths of college.
• have broken down completely.
• have experienced every possible emotion ever to exist.
• started to branch out.
• secluded myself and pulled in.
• made decisions and changed my mind.
• tried new things.
• learned how to judge people.
• have disappointed, and impressed.
• have swiped a lot of ID cards through a machine.
  

Right now I:

• am looking for a job.
• speak Pittsburghese fluently.
• am a sorority girl.
• am a little lost and unstable.
• am recovering.
• am waiting until the end of summer.
• am not going to see my closest Gheny friend for 8 months.
• know where my real friends are at home.
• have a new outlook based on new experiences.
• am very unsure of what is to come.

It's amazing how much things change in the first year of college.

Mother Knows Best

It is official that my mom has the same solution to every single one of my problems. "Go take a big shot of that vodka" or some other solution involving alcohol. Mom I have been having problems sleeping...well have a couple beers or shots before you go to bed. Mom, my wisdom teeth are coming in and I am teething like a four year old...try rubbing a little vodka on it, then just to make sure, take some tylenol and a couple shots...it should help you sleep too!

There are countless instances. I am just glad I have suck a relationship with my mother that we can comfortably talk about this stuff and that she can actually make those suggestions to me. I just wanted to get this in writing as a reference for when I am in my AA meetings. My mom is turning me into an alcoholic =)

Life Choices

It's been a while I know, sorry for all you Stacy's Blog groupies...wait...I don't have any? Damn.

Anywho, a lot has happened. I don't know about anywhere else, but here at Allegheny we categorize everything into life choices. Often times they are poor life choices. Taking the grass instead of the sidewalk and ending up covered in mud, playing a game or going out instead of studying, blogging for the first time in two months instead of doing your ridiculous FS project (how dare you accuse me!!!) but you get the point. Second semester has been filled with all sorts of decisions for me...life decisions. Should I do this? Should I join this? Should I apply for this?

One choice however stands out above the rest. It was a huge decision that I had to make immediately upon getting back, even before diving into my classes even. This single decision however has turned into the greatest life decision of my college career, to date and most likely through the next three years. That choice was to join Allegheny College's Mu chapter of Kappa Alpha Theta sorority.

I don't really care about your opinion of the collegiate Greek system...that you buy friends or it's just a bunch of hos coming together to get drunk all the time. Theta is different (as well as Allegheny Greeks in general.) I now have this great new circle of people who know me and share things with me. A whole new realm of opportunities has opened up. I can't enter a room without someone saying hello.

It's all hard to explain, but it all truly came out last night as I was dragged out to a mixer with one of the fraternities. It was great. I knew everyone and it was an exciting experience. Beyond that, I went to a fraternity hosted dance party, which I vowed never to do. But it was all made better by the fact that I was with about ten other girls who were vowing to stick together and create our own party at the party. From there came the best part, being able to just have fun as huge beautiful snowflakes soaked us to the bone. Snow angels in senior circle. Wrestling and laughing. It was simply amazing and all came to be the best night of my freshman year.

So I don't care what people want to say about me being in a sorority. When you can run across campus through the great hours of the night laughing and yelling out the apple bottom jeans song, completely comfortable and happy...that is a moment when you know you have found your place. I hope I have many more of these moments, and I am sure I will. For now, I am entirely content with it all.

Now about that project...